Sunday, January 4, 2009

In between...who and what I saw

I guess I have an unusually strong sentimentality towards my hometown. I know folks often do and often retire where they grew up but I haven't met many lately who feel as I do, perhaps a little obsessed, which I can only assume means that I had a great childhood and parts of adulthood in this wonderful place. Above are Julia (remember my Silver Bella sister who met me in Omaha last month?) who was great to pick me up from the airport in Houston with only a few hours notice, Cindy, friend since we were 4, and me. And above, Cindy and I as juniors in high school. Crazy.In between "college" and beauty school I worked at Frank's Bar and Grill as the day waitress. Alan, with me above and below, was the day bartender, and Michael was the day cook. We were the Three Musketeers-thick as thieves-best friends.
Kismet, the whole trip was unbelievably, perfectly amazing. Alan says he's never at home and never answers his home phone when he is. Well he did on Tuesday, coinkidinck, I don't think. We met at his "office", Fox and Hound, a neat little bar where he can get all his work done on his laptop and cell as a regional sales rep for a wine company. His wife of 28 years, Bobbie, couldn't meet us as she was busy with their two young daughters but it was so special to have the time together to catch up.
Fate still at work, Lucas and I needed to get he and Kristen's gas account changed into their names so we needed to go to the gas company which is called Atmos Energy. At the same time that we were looking for Atmos, I was looking for an old...ummm...friend, Otto. While Lucas is finding out where Atmos is on his phone, I'm finding out that Otto works at Atmos by knocking on many doors in a neighborhood where his last address was shown on the Internet. Technically that's not stalking, is it? Not when it's been 35 years of pining.AND, also working there is Glen, friend since first grade, our sisters were good friends too. So many fabulous surprises. There were others there, like Jack, below, I have to follow up on names, I'm embarrassed that I didn't remember them the way I did Otto and Glen like the back of my hand. Here's a better picture of Glen, on the right, with Jack and Otto at their office party.Julia and I drove around the first day seeing our old grade schools, childhood homes, and many other sentimental landmarks. Here I am, above, crying my eyes out on "my" front porch calling my mom saying, "Mamma, I'm home!", scaring the crap out of her thinking I might have been calling from Heaven since it was coming out as, "Maaaammmmaaaa, sniff, sniff, sob, sob, I'm, sniff, sob, sniff, sob, home, sob, sob.". At least I was with Julia who knew me. The poor girl sitting next to me on the plane who had to witness my breakdown when the pilot announced that we were 110 miles from Houston and it finally hit me that I was going to be in Texas after way tooooooo long will need some serious counselling.
I pulled myself together just long enough to have to do my "Vanna" thing in front of my favorite climbing tree. The owners came home while we were there and I got to go inside for the first time in 25 years.
After Lucas and I left Atmos we found our way out to what used to be our family farm. Hadn't been there in over 30 years. While we had our home in town, my dad had gotten a farm with acreage and turned it into an exotic animal farm. We had llamas, kudu, ostriches, emu-actually somewhere around 140 different breeds of exotic animals. My class used to take field trips in the buses each year. Above is the original cabin where we spent any time away from the horses and other animals shooting pool. Infinite, blessed memories from here.
Above was the original tank that was on the land, Daddy later added a second, but this is the one where all my wonderful loving memories were made of me and my Daddy fishing in our little john boat, below, for hours on end. There was a movie called Passion Fish made a few years ago and I went to see it alone. It was a great movie but what did it for me was at the end she's sitting in her john boat and there's only the sound of the waves hitting the side of the boat and I burst out in sobs, the sound memory being so exact to that of Daddy and I fishing. Fortunately, at the time, I could just go to their house and hug, kiss him, and tell him all about it. He was there with me when Lucas took these pictures looking down from overhead. I love you Daddy, thank you for being mine.
And, of course, below, the beautiful blessings of why I had to rush down and do the "mamma" thing, Lucas and Kristen.
Need I say it every time? There is more to come...

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Happy New Year!!! New Year's Eve...lost in Austin, juiced in Houston

At midnight I was the only one who didn't have an s.o. to kiss so a few minutes before I started scouting. I ended up settling for this poor ugly guy who also had no one to kiss and I took pity on him. Then when Andrew seemed to be getting way too into me I scared him off by introducing him to my boys as their new step daddy. He must have been an Olympian, it works like a champ every time!
Okay, well, we didn't get to Houston so we did both in Austin last night and it was great. We ended up at a small bar with a great small group of my boys' friends.Here's me in Mamma Heaven, ringing in the new year with two of my three boys. Who do you think was the NON-designated driver? (He really wasn't like he looks in the pic, it's that he was caught in a blink-honest)
"Dude, who put alcohol in my booze and where the hell's my Happy Meal toy?"
"It's all good!" (Check out those guns!)
Great sign in the bar for pondering at a good time for pondering.
Snapped this from some guy's shirt...it's a classic. Need I say more later? There is an insane amount of things we did between this post and the previous one but totally enjoying not stressing over it. Everything seems to happening as it should and we are along for the ride of an awesome trip.

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Yeeeeeee Stinkin' Hawwwwwwwwwwwww

In less than a 24 hour period, starting night before last at around 7, I got a phone call from Lucas and Kristen in a very-only mamma-can-fix crisis, talked long and deep with both of them, had a heart-to-heart-decision-making conference with Paul about coming here, booked a ticket, packed my bags, called Julia to see if she had ANYTHING better going on than to pick me up at Houston Hobby the next day and drive me to Bryan/College Station from whence I came into the world and my heart and soul have dwelled ever since, went to bed at 10:30, got up at 5:00 a.m., airport at 6 on the runway at 7:30, drooled all the way until the pilot announced we were 110 miles from Houston at which time I began to bawl my eyes out as I finally realized that I was landing in my heart and soul within minutes after 6 way too long years since my last visit (which amounted to only a few hours in the last 20 years) to Mecca, deplaned, called Julia who drove around to get me, went on the grand tour of her Northwest Houston fabulous home, stop at the first Whataburger in sight, drove to B/CS, drove to Lucas and Kristen's, hugged/kissed, Julia and I took the historic tour of our elementary schools, our childhood homes (mine was elongated by bouts of hysterical, sentimental crying jags, usually 10-15 minutes each), onto Cindy's house (known her since we were 4?...do the math...no help from me-info in past posts will give obvious hints and definite numbers to work with) for a 20 year catch-up, back to Lucas and Kristen's by 6 p.m., change into warmer clothes, Lucas, Kristen, and I take a long memory (and new) walk through campus to North Gate to land at Mecca II (and supplemental address growing up starting at 15)...The Dixie Chicken where I had no less than a deep spiritual renewal (I'm really not shittin' about any of this) of Shiner beer, London Home Sick Blues, Willie, Waylan and the boys, chicken fried steak, and, OF COURSE several games of pool where Kristen sucked up nicely by "letting" me win-I was ON MY GAME, back to the casa for side-splitting, poop-in-your-pants, on-the-floor-rolling-in-tears laughing attack provided by JustAskDoug (a buddy's dad of K/L on YouTube), (Shiner and other "alterations" enhance the experience), 1/2 hour to regain composure, get in jammies, into bed (we all had to "sleep" in the same room because of security-more on that later, especially in the screenplay which I worked on in my head most of the night), and, finally, after no one getting any sleep mostly because of me and "Doug" (remember, I told y'all to watch Multiplicity asap), up and ready to kick some ass on a long list of gettin' these two sweeties back on track. Knowing I don't need to say so, but will, of course anyway, there will be much more and many more details, photos, fill-in-the-blanks, and off to Austin tomorrow for New Year's Eve, meeting The Great Doug and yet-to-be-critically-fully-assessed, Carol (things are looking good for her and the Oscar buzz has definitely hit Highland Street in College Station, TX. Kudos and a bow if you followed some of this, a free 72 oz. chicken fried steak if you absorbed it all. I'm just guessing that I don't need to tease you with a "stay tuned", I think I've got y'all by the b's. As Morgan Freeman and Jim Carey would say, "It's good". I'm in cotton.

Sunday, December 28, 2008

I have green fingernails and a new camera.

A combo post of where I left off June 24th when I went from pondering a manicure and pedicure to frying all my hair off all the way to getting a new camera for Christmas.Confused? Why? If I can keep up then anyone should be able to. I, blog-before-last, shared that I got a new camera for Christmas. Then yesterday I finally followed through with that oh so long ago stream of consciousness to have a manicure and pedicure which lead to today's experiment to see how the new camera is working out. Up to date? Being...well...me, and paying for a m/p, I decided to go as far from norm as possible and choose the green over the rusty red that Wonderfully Fun Emma had suggested. It looks like the true color and the clarity is better than the old camera...
...one of my fave pieces of Mellie's art that I've never been able to quite capture as desired but looks good here...
...and I know, yada yada yada, how many times can you photograph the same freaking holiday house? Well I wanted to also do an apples to apples test. I think it's an improvement...looks like the new camera might be a keeper...wadayathink? This is yea or nay, not a vote for or against Pedro...fyi.

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Blame it on Charlotte

Or, actually I should say, give Charlotte the credit. During one of Charlotte Lyons' classes in Omaha where she was teaching us how to make little paper holiday houses, she happened to mention that her book club had read Loving Frank by Nancy Horan, as shown below. Well, Charlotte being one of my critically selected gurus, I saw fit to purchase said book the first opportunity it presented itself which just happened to come directly in my line of vision on a soon-after trip to Targette.
And, like a good listener, I proceeded to start on it immediately and, also immediately, fell under its spell. Charlotte had said that it was a great, easy read, and she was right-on in my opinion. As I read I began to ponder the "book club" aspect of her sharing this with the class. I've always wanted to be in a book club but, just like wanting to be picked first for the basketball team (Julia, I think we were usually the last two standing...nonathletic or artistic savants?), I've never been asked. Well we all know the answer to that-durrrr-start one. So I did/am. The trigger that made me finally pull was that the BOOK CLUB READER'S GUIDE is in the back of the book. Again, durrr. Okay, so there's a little more point to this that I'll try to make in my not-so-usual short story/short story instead of short story/endless. Yesterday was a very deep day. The day started off with a dream that lasted from somewhere around 2 a.m. until I finally got up at 8:45 a.m. needing to open the shop at 10. I won't indulge/bore (except to say it had to do with seemingly unfinished business with an ex boyfriend from very long ago) you with the details but it was truly that long as I kept waking on and off checking the clock and every time I woke then went back to sleep the same dream continued (same thing happened again this morning but we'll save that for the institute for now). Next, as I sped to work at an irresponsible speed, I got a call from Aziz (perhaps more on him later; for now he's my good friend who was a super-star at U of MD and played pro football and I got to know him a few years ago and he'd kill me for mentioning his past accolades but I can't help it, I'm Texan) who is very spiritual and deep and cool and intelligent and great company and wonderful to converse with. We usually say hi, how are ya' then we are knee deep in religion, politics, race...some sort of deep life question subject and, usually, in no less than an hour a pop. No different yesterday-right to it except I had to ring off to help the first customer of the day who turned out to be the twit of the year and was so not worth leaving the middle of a great convo to talk to. Even in spite of my lateness, sped, and intensity of our exchange, I told him I could feel my heart rate and demeaner slow down and become calm just hearing his voice; he's enlightened. Later in the day, Jody was in and another (MUCH BETTER QUALITY) customer was in and we three got into some pretty heavy discussion regarding, let's simplify it by saying, life and death. Then things turned to the state of "generational curse", as in every generation gets worse. Jody shared how overwhelmed she felt that things were spinning out of control as far as mostly our principals and priorities were concerned. Herein lies my point-Yahooooooooooooo!, I can just hear y'all saying. I said the old adage, "think globally, act locally", then added, "join a book club" (to which she'd already been invited). As my wise friend, Julia, pointed out to me so clearly somewhere around the post "30 Years for a Bounced Check", you can't save the world by trying to save the world. You can only start with yourself then move outward to your family, neighborhood, friends, etc. And, I have to say, I was preaching to the choir because Jody and her sister, Marcy, who lead our shop group, are very good about community outreach and allowing the members of our shop to participate whenever possible in so many different areas of need. My point was to get back to simple, basic things and simple, basic communion with friends be it a book club or quilting club or dinner club or whatEVER. And, since I haven't mentioned it in a couple of posts, please consider checking out MaryJanesFarm website, blog, and/or magazines which addresses exactly these issues if these are also on your mind frequently. And just like Forest Gump, that's all I have to say about that except, thank you, Charlotte.